You look so dumb right now~

Will be starting my 3rd semester in 2 days time.

no excitement.At all.

depressed.upset.frustrated.

I knew i was kinda fucked up with my F&I paper,

I knew I couldn't get a high distinction for my econs.

I knew I knew I knew....n now I know that I always make insufficient effort to achieve what I want.

Yes, I'm the one who always end up regretting but never really work harder.

Yea, I know I'm the most shitty shithead.

What a shame of you.shithead.

Arghh...this post shud be about my 20th birthday!

hmph!

Anyway I'm so blessed to have my family and friends who make me feel all the love in the world.
Thanks alot to my lovely sisters for the wonderful handmade birthday card.

Thanks u So much to my hey-ians, form6 kakis, Bffs, Natorians, ex skoolmates, leo kakis, long lost frens....

wow...thanks for all the calls, celebrations and messages....(and also petrol expense :P)

my mum couldn't stand me hogging on the phone for days and always repeating,

You are SO busy horrr....

How can I don't love u all, people?!

Thank you very very much for making me feel so loved!

photo yang teruk edited by steven :X thxx for celebrating my bday alllllll the waaaaaaay at kampar =) the video is too embarrassing to be uploaded.haha.

My leftover homies who don't have to study in those jungle unis...haha =P n thxx to simon's fren, jason who was being so helpful that nite!

Gosh, nearly forgot bout the redang trip. It was greaaaaaaaaaaaat. I've always wanted to post up some photos coz we've taken freaking lots of photos in redang! but duhh...im lazzzzzy. the trip is fully reported on the nato blog, so i think i can han fann my energy to write bout it.ngek ngek ngek. moreover, the photos tell it all!

Errr...I'm happy now.hehe.

Happy-go-lucky ada kebaikannya~

it's blue...i mean, BLUE!!!

It was great bonding with u gals!(okie...except ms cecilia behind) we had an adventurous nite =P

I dah tak de tenaga to choose n upload more photos...coz we've taken approx. 920+ pics!

so that's all for today. I'll end this post with 2 of my fav photos. hai gam sin.

i luv the lighting n tone....

Seriously, it was really a wonderful trip with my fellow natorians. duhhh...it's really hard explaining in words.....hmm...it's greaaaaaaaaatttt, i really mean it =P

Congratulations~!!

I'm SOOOOOOOOOO proud of you, mommy~

Ladies and gentlemen,

May i present you, the newly appointed Batu Gajah Councillor, Madam Chan Foong Leng!

Sin Chew Jit Poh Perak Edition 10th July 2008

Mommy, Daddy and I

Will be giving u our biggest support, forever n ever =)

how bout a round of applause?

Brain is not working...

Finally,final exam is over, 2nd sem is over, n it's holiday.
The sentence above should be ended wif an exclamation mark, but now I cant really feel the excitement of holiday. urghhh...I feel slack...I feel like im getting sick!

Somehow I feel like I've gone thru alot this sem....but It seems hard for me to put everything in words.

Yesterday morning i went to 问觋（问米)...hmm...i really dunno how to translate this.

It was kinda amazing n unbelivable, but I wouldnt say that I believe on it 100%.

Anyhow, it brought me to tears again when my grandma told us that she wanted to wait for her grandchildren before she leaves, but she just couldnt....

I told her,

I miss you so much, mah mah.

I manage to find this photo in my phone. It was taken in the end of 2006, when she started to fall ill.
My granny was curling her hair n i forced my two younger sisters to join in too.haha. My granny really really minds her appearance :P

I really really hope that the person I talked to yesterday morning was Her.

Back in Town

Today
I have missed my chance again, as usual.
I certainly could not predict the outcome, but I trust my instinct that it will be a good one
Sigh...and....the signals....
All the songs they sang tonite makes me feel kinda emo, hmm...maybe their vocals were too great

Was out for dinner with my homies....
somehow the feeling was no longer the same
maybe all of us had already gone through different paths of lives
and now, preparing to pursue what we want for ourselves
We are no longer taking the same steps at the same time
or
maybe it was because of the existence of someone who hurt me most last time
maybe i was overprotecting myself from this person

At last there were only us, the closest hey-ians of mine
and yes, this is the feeling i was looking for
still, crazy like ever :P
although the big guy and small black pepper were not around
the togetherness among us is one of the most precious properties of mine

Words to my best-est homies

Steven : I hope that u'll think twice before u decide, u know wat i would advise u, but no matter wat, I'll still support ur decision.

Mun : U're still the best ji mui in town~!

James : Thanks for everything u have done for the group, thxx for staying still at our HQ :P and plz...stop missing me TOO MUCH~! haha...

Yin : Never seen u for a while....hope that u'll buy me super nice souvenir after coming back from ur 'honeymoon' in Macau! this is wat a ji mui shud do....

Neng : Come back soon, big guy!

love u guys lotz lotz!

A random but Remarkable one

Yes, you.
You brighten up my day.
Happy, excited, fascinated...though it only lasted for a short moment.

As usual....i feel lost....whenever im alone.
somehow i feel worry....i wonder why.
something's bothering me.....but wat is it?

wat is wrong wif me?

Anyhow, You.
A nice one, i believe.
A special one, you are. bond bond bond, please i pray.
it's the first, but i really hope that it will not be the last. You are awesome :)

I love you Mah Mah

Tonite has been an emo nite…..

Goshh…it took me one n a half hour to reach home…I felt really sick of the jam…tonite is most probably the jam of year 2008…was feeling really headache n hungry, I was afraid tht I’ll die in my car…then I started to think bout…how if I really die..now..?

During the last 30minutes of my driving…I cried…helplessly.
When I was bathing juz now…I cried….
I tot of my grandma……it was like pictures kept flashing in my mind…all the memories…sweet n sour…
So I think I shall write my beloved grandma a letter.

Mah mah,
It has been exactly 15days that u left me…

Why…why didn’t u wait for me? Why didn’t u wait for a few hours more? I was rushing back to see you…really….
Maybe you were too tired…so u decided to leave…im really sorry…to keep u waiting for so long…I couldn’t stop blaming myself for not accompanying u until the end.im sorry.

Mah mah, can u hear me? Did u receive everybody’s blessings n wishes on ur funeral? Everybody from our town, n even a lot of people from different states came purposely to pay their last respect to u…did u c them? Did u c the photo of urs? Everybody knows that u like to be pretty..so we picked the very best photo for u. dun worry, u look really pretty n decent. Did u c all the flowers that were sent by all the friends? Yes....the garden was full of flowers….flowers that u like. I was talking to u..day n nite while u were resting in peace at home…did u hear me? But sorry for all the crying….i know u wouldn’t want me to cry…but I just couldn’t control myself.

Mah mah, I feel so bad…I kept asking myself whether I have done enough as a grand daughter. Yes I know I did take care of u while u were sick…even spending nites in the hospitals…..we helped u to massage…rub lotion….take u to toilet….but….i also complained….im really sorry…I should have done more n better than what I did.

You never failed to shower me with all ur love, always hoping me to go back hometown during holidays. U never know how bad I felt when they told me that there was a few times that u’ve mistakenly tot tht someone was me when she called u mah mah. remember there was one time, almost 2 years back, when u started to get sick….u insisted aunt kheng to fetch u out to buy diamond pendants for us even though u were feeling very unwell that time….then u surprised us with these presents, u want us to be happy though u were in pain…

We bought u new pyjamas, but u told us tht u wanna wear it after u recover. There was once wang lee hom came to ipoh for the shooting of lust caution. U told me that u would have driven to ipoh to catch a glimpse of him if u r not sick…u also told kakak that u will bring her to shop in ipoh after u recover. I really really feel very upset n pain whenever I heard u saying this…because I know…that…the chances r slim…..

It was the world cup season back in 2006, daddy, mun n I gathered at ur house to watch the match…do u still remember that u did not want to go to bed n insisted to watch the match together? you fell asleep, but whenever there was someone who scored a goal, u would wake up in time to celebrate the special moment with us. How cute. U were really tired that time, but u juz wanna spend more time with us…I know.

Our last conversation was on the election day. U were already….lazy..by that time…nevermind…we know u were tired. We kept telling u stories n updating u the election results. The last words u told me was…It’s great that the opposition has won big!! I never knew that it would be the last sentence tht u r goin to tell me…I never knew tht I wouldn’t have any chance to talk to u again….i never knew…

Mun said u r a wonder woman…

yea…u really are. U were not from a wealthy family, but u have super good taste…to decorate the whole house…super fussy in buying clothes, vases, antiques, plants, jewelleries…oh almost forgot, not buying clothes..u have ur own tailor to make u clothes, n this is ur hobby!hehe…fussy woman. u have really strong powers…to handle the whole family…to take care of ur favorite garden…house…all ur grandchildren…ur family…how tiring. But part of tht was because u have a really good husband, mahmah. He loves and cares for you so much…both of u have tasted the bad n good times together n finally all yeh yeh n ur hardwork has resulted in providing the family a very good life. Both of u has already gone travelling to most parts of the world! I wish I have a chance to do that too…n it’s always fun to listen to ur stories..of how u dislike American food, Italian food….Mahmah, I really think that yeh yeh n ur story is a very proud story of success…I am very proud to have yeh yeh n ur love….

Mah, I know that u were worried bout my safety in kl…u were always blaming daddy for buying me a 2nd hand car…u said tht u will buy me a new car if u were not sick…I know tht u were worry that if anything happens to the car while im driving on the road…but really, pls dun worry….im able to take care of myself now…I promise u, im learning…..n I want u to know that I dun mind driving an old car, it has given me a lot of convenience, I really dun mind, coz I know im very very fortunate compared to many people out there….

Mah mah, I tell u what…im feeling good in these 2 weeks time. U r not here anymore, but I wanna tell u that I have met some really good friends over here, the place im studying in rite now. I dare not to say that we are soul mates, but it’s really great to spend time with them, we share feelings, we have fun, im happy….they even cook for me, help me with school work, borrow me money :)…so u dun have to worry! I really appreciate them, can u plz pray that we will be good frens forever?

Mah mah, u are always the unity figure of the family….without u….everything will be very different…hmm…but I guess maybe all of us can still gather at least once a year during cny? Im really sorry…I dun have the ability to gather our big family together…

Oh yea..i almost forgot to deliver u the good news! We r moving in to stay wif yeh yeh soon…so tht we can accompany him n u all the time…so u dun have to worry bout ur beloved husband! I’ll try to update my knowledge on politics…econs…biz…to reach his standard of communication :P

Mah mah, I think…I have to get use to the life of having u staying in my heart forever…..but…im afraid that the picture of u inside my heart will get more n more blur one day….
n I wouldn’t ever forgive myself for not having a photo of a grown up me n u....

I have to go to bed…I have class tomorrow…u take care okie? Love you mah mah!
Love, mun teng

Mah mah
R.I.P 18th March 2008

Go fellow electorates!

Status : waiting for the siaran langsung of the results of the 12th GE!!

Bravo to the fellow kinta valley electorates~!
This is wat i've read from the Nanyang Siang Pau Perak edition (7th March 2008), an effort of awareness raising among we, the non malays who have been treated unfairly.
do read http://malaysiakini.com/opinions/78994 and http://quaintly.net/2008/03/06/how-barisan-national-cheats-their-way-to-victory to reveal the truth...

To All Fellow Malaysians

We are a group of non partisan electorates in Kinta Valley. Having read the election manifestos and claims of the ruling and opposition parties. Having observed and analysed the current affairs, we have concluded:

We, the Kinta Valley electorates are not being emotional. We are just using our votes, power once in five years, to clearly express our dissatisfaction and disagreement against the Barisan National government. Casting an opposition vote is not an emotional outburst. It is hoped that after suffering some losses, the Barisan National government, will rethink its action and will improve for the betterment of the nation, bringing better life for the people.

We believe that a good government will, from the votes, read the people's feelings, understand them, listen to them and implement policies beneficial to them. It does not alienate and oppress the opposition voters. We also believe that a kind government is the "government for the rakyat", not just government for the Barisan Nasional constituencies. All planning and development should have the people's interests at heart, macrospically.

Based on the above, we will vote for the opposition in this general election. Hopefully, this will wake the country leaders up. So that they will humble themselves and to start afresh to work for the people.

If the Barisan Nasional government cannot have an open and tolerant attitude to accept this, it proves that it is not a good government. And to a bad government, voting against them is of course the right thing to do.

The following is our dissatisfaction for the attention of the Barisan Nasional government:
a) Corruption. The government does not take swift action. Palace Zakaria is a good example.
b) High crime rates. Sleepless night.
c) Deteriorating Judiciary.
d) Bad governance.
e) Unfair distribution of wealth.
f) Self enriching people representatives.

Finally, we call all Malaysians ns, at this crucial moment, to cast your precious votes righteously forgetting personal friendship or relationship benefits and even party membership, bravely with your conscience.

From a group of electorates in Kinta Valley

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Yes..PLEASE!please vote righteously!

Jay's Da Bomb!!!

Oh My Goodnessssssssssss!!!!!

Jay is SUPERB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's Da MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the concert was great!n the greatest thing is he has talked more n shown more dance moves!!hahaa...simply adorable.he has had more performances tht happen to be more interactive wif us, the audience...

it was a very sincere concert...lotza specially-created performances,u only can c it in msia...

the fireworks effects were amazing...perfect timing during every song...it creates excitement...hehee...woot wooooottt..lotz n lotza fireworks...

goshhh...as usual, he played piano n melted all our hearts...n made us feel awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....
he played guitar, drums, Gu-zheng n even the chinese yoyo!!oooo...n also beat box!!!gosh...he really can 扯铃coz he managed to play very well without dropping it on to the floor.DAMN....wat on earth tht he doesnt know?how more talented he could be? ORZ..... but too bad tht i din manage to capture the 古筝part,coz my camera got no more memory d...but it was very surprising tht he played fa ru xue using it n he was wearing a really cool jacket :P go n check it out on the papers!!!

he even sang the acoustic version of i dunno wat is the song's name by teresa teng for the aunties n uncles who went there...hehehe...really nice~

mavis n eunice said jay doesnt look like his age...yea seriously he really look younger than he is!haha.like fried rice...he doesnt look like his age too...hehe..i know y...it's becoz of the taiwanese genes!!!!p/s:both of them have small eyes :P

wat a great nite...n of coz, the most MEMORABLE one...coz...eunice's car tyre got puncher!hahaa...both her initial n spare typres r spoilt, she felt bad for her fren, jacky who has to helped her to change the tyres for a few times n worst,he has to sacrificed the 1am MU match!
luckily my sis came n borrowed us her spare tyre.

but, still...wat a great sat nite!!!i cant emphasize more on how fab the concert was....awww....i was wishing the concert will never end when i was in the stadium juz now :P

the only thing im not happy wif is tht there was 2 b*tches who refused to help me to buy the concert t-shirt.damn it...selfish ugly desperado f*cking idiotic bitches....i'll curse them for sure!
nvm...i wont let these 2 ugly bitches spoil my nite!f*ck them!oh no...plz dun...n they will never get one.haha.

yaY!monday sure gonna buy newspaper!!

p/s: photos n videos shown below r not really clear coz i din use any flash light n i had reduce the quality of the videos b4 i upload them :)

thxx to ian for the u-cant-get-them-even-if-u-have-money tickets...ahhaha

frenzy crowd!
IT'S THEM!!!!THEY r the ppl who cause deadly traffic at petaling street!!!!they parked their vehicles everywhere!!!!

i mean EVERYWHERE!!!!

tonnes of ppl q-ing up for the toilet b4 the show starts....urghh...really crazy...make sure ur bladder is elastic enuff to keep ur urine...haha
moren more ppl entering d stadium.... look at the crowd
the crew was fixing the pa system on stage....n i believe one of the man up there is ex NQMM, 巨炮 who has really sexy voice..haha

goin to start soon~
everybody was getting excited!!

FINALLY...
HE'S OUT!!Huang Jing Jia...as the opening

wu shuang

Mai Ya Tang

din manage to capture all da amazing fireworks...coz i was busy enjoying...hehe

ting ma ma de hua...

niu zai hen mang plus...a cute song...

Qian Li Zhi Wai

Ben Cao Gang Mu together wif DanTou rapping...he showed a lil bit of dance moves...:P

Nan Quan Mama as the special guests

i purposely record this for violet omelet...hehehe...but i got lack of card memory,so this is only wat i got :)

he was playing the transparent piano...hahaha...i mean...piano wif a transparent cover....so nice

an jing,the longest movie....too charming,my goodness...he played the secret sing from his movie,secret too...my goodness!!!

wif yu hao..juz like wat they did in secret...hehehe

my fav session...the acoustic n interactive session together wif nanquan mama.they showed their beat box skills n recomposed shuang jie gun too...



the very cute shuang jie gun

plz...plz...plzzz....dun make me to wait for another 3 years again....plzzzz